feeling a bit lost and empty.

on tuesady 24th of march, i woke up and received a call for baobei telling me that he had to go back to malaysia asap as his grandma had just passed away. i was shock upon knowing this. wondering whether can i go back malaysia with baobei to pay gramdma a last respect. but mummy daddy don't allow me to go back with him because they say to many days le. sian. like this i cannot go back le.

so i pack my bag for my swim and went to meet baobei.he left singapore at 2 plus in the afternoon. leaving me behind lost and empty. don't know what i suppose to do. not in the mood of doing anything and everything. can't sleep at night. turn the string till my finger bleed also can't sleep.missed baobei so much. but i know i cannot blame him for leaving mi behind. because no one want this kind of thing to happen.

i understand how it feel to lost someone who you loved so much. baobei must be very heart broken and sad. i feel sad to see him like this. all i can do is to be by his side and support him whenever he needs mi. even though i kown i might be a trouble maker. but i will try my best.. baobei i miss you so much..

Situation.....

Due to my failure in my IPPT, i being enrolled into RT(Remedial Training). It certainly sucks... Tues, Thurs and Sun training... Im so sian...

Baobei found a job as admin exec, so happy for her. She have stepped out into the society for the first time. Hoped she can excel in her career and to do the best whatever she can. Hoped her effort will be recognised..

my first step(first day of work)

today was my first day of work. last night i was still having fear of going to work. i was so scare that whatever i eat, i feel like vomiting it out.da jie try to make me eat something and she went to buy the foss wrap in the seaweed.i eat some of it and feel much better. when to bed at 12am.woke up at 6am, worried that i will be late for work.took the 6.30am bus and reach work place at 7.30am!way too early for work le.so i sat at the bus stop and had my breakfast.till 8.07am then i enter the office.

we got to clean our table everyday morning when we report to work.i sat at the front whereby once u open the door you are able to see me.i sat there and waited for my boss to come.

boss came and call me in to his room and explain the company internal control and system and told me who is who.then he show me who will be guiding and coaching me for the the next 3 months.

working there is quite stressful.you can only hear phone ringing, people typing and people walking up and down,in and out.i found out that they really report on the dot.8.30am start work they report on the dot.6pm off work they really 6pm sharp go off.

i left office at 6.15pm.took bus 100, there are alot of people on the bus.thought that after i change bus 45 got place to seat.end up standing all the way home.so tiring. well this is my first day off work.tomorrow will be another new day.who know what will happen?