Very unhappy moment....

Last sunday, i went to baobei's grandma birthday celebration rather than going to peifang's wedding in malaysia. Supposingly it was a happy event, but the arrangement was rather messy, we were separated with her mum and ah gong ah ma. baobei was not happy therefore she vent anger at everyone. Diana at this pt go lecture baobei, this make everyone unhappy. At the end of the dinner, i wanted to send weesing to go take cab, baobei assumed that i throw her there alone, so she vent anger at me. Then diana go lecture her again, she dashed out of the place in anger. I went around the area to find her. We had some quarrel and struggle then her fuo zhu fall off from her hand and broken. We picked up and i saw one of it at the road and wanted to go pick it up, but baobei scold me. Her mum and diana came, things calmed down.

We walked to chinapt there to take cab, i wanted to go hm myself so they can go back hm faster, but baobei insisted i take with them. I was quite sian already.

All i hoped is baobei really can change her temper, if not in future really very hard to get along with everyone. I can take it for now, but if one day i really take it what will happened? I dunno and i dun wish to imagine....

overtime overtime. work is more impotant than mi?

"bao bei today i not meeting you, i will be doing over time till 9plus", this is what i commonly receied from baobei. one of this kind of sms will then leave mi all alone by myself for the rest of my day.this sms is the sms i hate the most. i don't like the feeling of being all alone by myself, doing things all alone,going home alone after meeting you to have dinner and watch movies all alone.

you have promise me that you will accompany me but in the end, you break you promies to me again and again. leaving my heart in broken pieces. during the day time you seldom sms me due to the work load,this one i can understand but everynight you after work reach home and wash up, it already 11plus. you called me and then talk on the phone. it not talking at all. you remain silent and playing either your psp or your online game or yur ps2.then you tell me that you very tired want to go sleep ealy. then hand up the call le.

do you know how i feel?
do you understandhow i feel?
put yourself in my shoes and think and feel, what if i treat you like this, will you be happy? will you like it? will you understand how i feel? i wonder....

Poor us

Living in a world-class economy but getting 3rd class salary worker like us is very poor thing. I so sian lor.

This month wanted to save money but ended up spending it due to some reasons. Her mum, dad, ah ma and ah gong birthday present. So many things need to buy. She now not working, also got problem. Her parents dont really give her enough pocket money when they said they gave her. So no choice. Need to buy this buy that. She cannot afford so i have to fork out some also. She so ke lian. Its not her fault also. Perhaps.... haiz... really dun understand...

Guess i cannot save much money for my studies and my stuffs... haiz.. forget it ba... Hoped her sibling can graduate and start wrking so that they can earn their own money and stop borrowing from baobei without returning. zzz.

Today... if....

Today supposed to be the day where i going to Australia for reservist. But luckily, everything was cancelled. I had tried to defer but was rejected. I wondered how will it be if i was really sent for reservist. Anyway, i should count myself lucky that i can stay. Next year probably there will be another oversea ICT. Haiz. Dont think too much for now, i still got IPPT/RT to worry about. sian...

our first holiday

on the 28th sept,i woke up early in the morning as i could not sleep. i was too excited about the holiday we going to have.mi and Bao bei will be going to harris for a 4days 3nights holiday to relax our mind.

i meet baobei at 10am at seangoon mrt as he went to have breakfast with his mother before leaving for holiday. i was worry that we are unable to catch the freey till baobei told mi that the ferry is at 12pm.

upon reaching harbour front mrt. we have chat alot on the train. when we reached harbour front. we went to check in for our ferry and baobei accompany mi to go and had my breakfast. not knowing what to have for my breakfast.we end up having mac for breakfast but we are too late as we went there after 11pm. breakfast over. so we had nuggets for breakfast. after that we went in to board our ferry.

on the ferry there are not much people going to batam or harris. mi and baobei quickly found our seat.it was quite scary when the ferry leave then jetty.we watch mr bean on the ferry. baobei and i laugh while waiting it.

it took about 1 hr to reach batam center.we stop by there for a while and headed to harris. getting off the ferry was another scary encounter. my legs feel so weak. we took a mini van to the resort.

the people there are very friendly.we were welcome by a bunch of people. we are serve with a glass of bandong and a cold cloth to wipe our hand and face. you hardly experience this in any resort or hotel.

after we had check in, we went up to our room, we are surprised as it was a big room with a very big bed and you could see the sea from our room. it also come with a big bath tub.i was so happy, i quickly took a bath. stuck in the toilet till baobei scold mi. asking me to hurry up. we went down to walk around.

went to take a look at their bowling alley. to my horror,you won't want to play there if u have Long finger nails.you can't see the shine on the lane and their house ball there are alot of cracks on it. not worth breaking or cutting your nails for such games.

after walking around we deiced to had our lunch around 3plus. i had steam fish with yellow sauce and boabei had chicken with mushroom,that is what he like the most. we went back to our room and rest after lunch. we stay in our room and watch tv. there are alot of channel, they even have channel 5 & 8 & U, Singapore channel they all have it.

we watch till dinner time and decided to have our dinner at the same cafe we had our lunch that afternoon.after that we went to their so call pub and had a drink.they are showing F1. so bao bei and i went in. it was quite romantic and nice. baobei had beer and i had a small cup of orea ice bend(S$5.50)( size of a kid drink in mac). that was really expensive.

after that we went back to our room and sleep.

the second day of our holiday,we woke up at 7am and went for breakfast buffet and wait for our tour guide to come which is around 10.30am(Singapore time). we were surprise as there s only baobei and mi in this tour.

he took us to two temple to pray and two polo shops which baobei love the most and i hate it the most and took two shop which sell their local product after that he brought us to have our lunch. this is what i have been looking forward to since the beginning of the holiday. but soon i regret as there were really too much food for the both of us. there are 6 dishes and 1 soup. we ask the tour glide to join as as there are really too much food. they say they can't as it is the rules of their company.well then we carry on with our tour after lunch.

we went to the polo shop and after that we went for our message. baobei very brave. the took up the traditional Thai style body message and i took a leg message(both is 1 and1/2 hours).it was quite comfortable but a bit painful too.

after that we went shopping. it was quite boring as the tour guide follow us.wanting to shop for clothes but the tour guide is around making mi feel uneasy. so didn't buy alot of things.

we went to buy A&W for dinner as we think that eating at the re sort's cafe is too expensive. it is standard to give at lest S$2 for a tip for the tour guide and the driver. we gave S$6 to them as the service is really very good. but the tour guide gave all to the driver as the driver was not feeling well. we feel bad about it as the tour guide did not have any tip so we gave him another S$2 to him.

we saw the promotions at the lobby that the resort is having a pool side BBQ buffet. each person S$30. it is very expensive but baobei want to try. so we went for it. it is very romantic and dark as they did not on the light. you hardly can see what you are eating. too bad we did not manage to get the bed which is at the side of the pool.

there was a cat.we feed it with the food we had left over.baobei enjoy feed it and soon start to like that cat. he say it is like the chi's sweet home that cat. i am happy to see him smile.after that we went for foot message. it really want our life. it was so so painful. we went back to our room after that to sleep.

the next day we had morning swim at 7am. we thought the water will be very cold as it had just stop rainning. but to our surprise, the water is warm.i never see baobei enjoy swimming so much before.

this holiday was too long to type out le.i will stop at day 3. hehe. but overall, this holiday is a wonderful one. i really enjoy myself and i am very happy that baobei really enjoy himself there. we will miss there and we decided to go back ther next year.

baobei thanks for the holiday. i realy enjoy it very much.love you and miss you always.muackz.......