why i reacting in this way

my life had totally change when i received my blood test result. every thin are high, blood sugar high, blood pressure high.. got to lose 28kg in order to stay healthy. since that day, my mum started to control my diet, what i eat and drink totally cut down by more than half. i felt so weak when she did it to me. took alot of blood test and went for check ups and x-ray. this one charge money that one charge money. charge till i don't have enough money le. i got to pay my course fee and bills. feel bad asking mummy and daddy to pay for my things. got to find some ways to earn money.haiz

So feb up and disappointed,being look down by my own father

So sad and disappointed as my own parents look down on mi. all thanks to my 2nd aunty. saying that how good her son ah jo is as he work part time overtime can earn 100 plus. Because of this sentense, my dad conclude that i am useless and throw our family face. just because i am jobless. daddy felt that i having holiday and don want to go to work. is not that i don wan to find a job. i had send alot of resume and went for alot of interview and he keep thinking that i never find. why didn't he say about cheryl, she also jobless. why must it always going against mi. I started to hate this family. I start want to move out. i know it will hurt mummy. i can't bear to leave her. but daddy is the one who is forcing mi to leave.now we having quarrel.

our 31th month anniversary.

today is our 31th month anniversary. It surpose to be a very happy occuaction but it turns out to be like this..

early in the moring 7.30am, when the sun is about to shine, weather is cold as it has just stop rainning. my mummy wake me up, asking me to go see doctor about my weight thingy(as she promise me to bring me there). So we went to amk poly clinic to see the doctor. Took no. for resignation, waited quite long to see the doctor.

the doctor took my height and weight and ask me to take some test to check out what went wrong inside my body. So we went to take blood pressurse test and blood sugar test. It was painful when doing the test as they had to take some drops of my blood to test. Got the result in a few mins time. Found out that my blood pressures and blood suagr level is above the normal requirement.Then my mummy start to jump in to concludsion le. Keep say that I had the same illiness like my father and blame me for not doing exerciese and eating too much oily and deep fried food when I swear to god that I seldom eat very oily ans deep fried food.Then the doctor arrange another blood test for me. This time they took out 1 tube of my blood.

After that, we went to the near by hawker center to have our breakfast. she keep asking me to eat food with out oil salt or sugar. like this where got taste? must well don't eat. I told her I don't want to eat. She scolded me. Say that they just took so much blood out from me. Must eat something if not will faint. I don't care about what she say. Faint then faint lor. die even better. she like want the whole world to know my condition. keep on calling to others telling them my condition. I so angry that I walk very fast to the bus interchange and took a bus home. she went to bring racheal to hospital for check up..

when I reach home, I did not rest. I straight away took the dry clothing down then hang up the wet ones then change xaio ai and ah boy's bathing as it is very stink. finish changing i took out my ghost stories books and read and blog at the same time.this is only from morning till afternooon.who knows what will happene tonight. haven eaten or drink a single drop of water or food till now. had a quarrel with baobei. feeling very giddy and sad now..

My family chalet

Last weekend, my elder sister have organised a family chalet at aloha resort, therefore i asked baobei's mum to see if i can bring her to go, surprisingly she agreed cuz i tot she will never allow her daughter to stay overnight outside without her presence. I am quite happy to hear this. So i bring baobei go over on sat.
When i reach there, there is quite a number of ppl whom i dunno de, my sister and brother they asked their friends to come along also. Since lidat i called snake to come also. The main point i worried most is i scare ended up we have to sleep outside or squeeze in a room til very jialat at nite.
I actually quite tired of BBQ food again... been doing it for all the past few chalets, but no choice, if wan to eat have to BBQ... So i BBQ-ed a lot of foods... eat and eat and eat den watch tv... seriously not much things to do over there also. Snake and his bf came, just nice i have BBQ their share also. We eat and talk a lot of craps...
So boring over there, so we take over the mahjong table once the older adult have done with their session. Played til tired le, den we all stop and go to slp liao... luckily my family got a room of our own. i brought sleeping bag just in case, so i let snake use... baobei, me and my mum combine 2 single bed into bigger space to slp...
That night, i cannot get into slp cuz my mum beside me snored very loud... til a few hrs later when the snoring become lower volume den i can get to slp... so tired... Nxt morning, we have porridge and curry chicken with bread as breakfast, den we helped out to pack out and left to bring the stuffs over to my brother hse. After that, my brother send me and baobei back to my hse while snake go hm frm my hse.
Baobei got exam on the nxt day, so she have to study.... while i play my psp til tired den we go take a short nap...

Shopping spree

hmm... this few mths ever since i started wrking, i been doing a lot of shopping... haha... i just bought a dvd mini compo ytd... and i bought a lot of new clothes these few mths.. nw trying to get rid of the old stuffs... going back to ICT soon... moody.