it all a lie

10th july 2008, i came to relise that it is a dream and a lie after all. i have been a fool for 35 months. i trusted him so much, but again and again he lied to me, breaking his promises to me once again. last night i had plan to cook dinner for him as i see him not having his meal because he wan to save money. so on the next day, which is today, i woke up at 6am to get ready to go school as i meeting caroline for breakfast before we have our exam.Took my medicine and felt so sleepy and tired. Didn't went for extra lessonwhich is from 2pm to 6pm as i cannot take it. I have been coughing and LS non stop. so i went home.thought that i could rest but in the end i spent my time thinking of what to cook for him to eat and scare that i cooked this and he don't like it. In the end i decided to make something special for him. I decided to give baking a try. so me and da jie went to amk hub de ntuc to buy the things we need. by the time we got the things we need, it is already 7 plus going to 8pm le.i din't even have time to eat my dinner and medicine as i was so worry that i could not make it in time. end up finish baking at around 10.30pm. he called and we chat on the phone for a while as he took a taxi to my house to collect the bread. what really made mi angry and heart broken is that the first thing he tell mi or ask me for the whole day is not about my health or what. it that he tomorrow want to overtime cannot meet mi. he had totally forgotten that he had promise mi that we will go bowling on friday night. I got angry and when he came and take the bread i gave him black face. he took the ugly and hard like hell the bread home. i sms him tell him to throw it away and we quarrel, i cried in the toilet and while typing all this. he don't even care or know that i am crying.allhe know is he is tired lack of sleep and work work work everyday. this really make mi want to break up and get a someone better. sometime i really wish that i can have a bf who really understand how i feel and know what i really want. i just don't want to do everything all alone by myself. going home alone. walking down the road. heart broken and cry in bed till i fall a sleep. seriously very heart broken. i don't want to be a fool anymore.