From the bottom of my heart

Here I'm sitting here updating this blog,while he is busy at his work place. now I am feeling down, low and empty. Feeling so useless for the first time in my 18 years of life. Today in the morning i went to school to have my lesson as usual. IAC which most of us think that we are in the wrong course. After that carmen, caroline, da jie and me went to find Mr Hari. He was talking to Shu shu(about his family matter). after that Hari told me that those malay girls in my class think that I never mark their attandance when they come for lesson. I am so pissed off by them. we had lunch with Mr hari and then I went down to meet Joanne. Actually have to accompany her go down to wheelock place to remove her dark eye circle but in the end never go because she do her schedule till pass the appointment time. So she accompany me take 166 back to Amk Hub then she went to visit Jeniffer and i went back home. when i was waiting for joanne, i saw two MayFlower secondary student walking in to pepper lunch for interview. then i felt that i am so useless. since the day i quit pepper lunch. it have been 1 month le and i still jobless. i feel so sad as i think that now secondary school having holiday and student are looking for job. I feel that i don't stand much chance to get a job.
when I reached home Da jie is at home. Using her laptop as usual. Actually carmen and da jie wanted to come to the Mac opposite my house to study. But in the end they never come.so i stay at home do my home work.
Bao bei and me had a quarrel just now about a e-mail send to mi by one of my guy friend.I know he is very angry with me because I promise bao bei not to contact him.But i really can't find anyone to talk to when i feeling sad or when i quarrel with bao bei.He is the only one who willing to listen to me. But bao bei don't like him. I have no choice but to erase his number from my phone and block him from MSN. I feel so sad as it is like losing one close friend.
after that da jie and me went to the market to buy ah ma's birthday present as she is celebrating her 81th birthday later on. we cannot buy too cheap or too expensive. if not will give other people bad impress.
da jie spent 60 plus and i spent 42. after paying that i felt that my account is very empty. NO income at all.feeling useless and sad again. xiao mei also went to the same shop to buy ah ma present. they spent 68. after that we went home and xiao mei together with kay yong went to pick mummy and daddy home. while me and da jie stay at home do our stuff. I felt stress too as i have 2 CA1 and 1 mock test to do on this coming tuesday. My IAC(test on trading profit & loss account and balance sheet), BCM(listening compre) and MPS(chapter 1 & 2).
bao bei work till 12.30am then go home. miss him so much.