this is how i felt after that night dinner.

On the 14th of every month is our anniversary. every anniversary we spent together by having a good and nice meal. But this month is the worst i ever had. this is how it goes.

bao bei called mi in the morning tell mi that he is taking MC as he is not feeling well, have slight fever.early in the morning, i did not went for accounting class as i want to spent time studying for my Managing People System (MPS). reach school at 8am. nope of them are there. so i carry on studying by myself and not long caroline came. we had breakfast together and carry on studying. later crystal aaron and mother came. soon we went to take our CA1 for MPS. we were so nervous and my stomach is giving mi alot of problem. went in to take our CA1. we thought that other classes will score well. but in the end, they just write their name class date and index no. then sleep le. at least i am better i secure a 15 marks. i did the MCQ and gave the 3 structure question a try. i wrote what ever thing i can remember le. then hand in the paper. we got very strong feeling that we will not do well in the CA1 for MPS. i feel so sad. this was the first blow of the day.

after that me carmen da jie and aaron walk to simei mrt to take train or bus. mother took bus no 5 home. then we took a train. i meet bao bei at city hall mrt. when i reach there i called bao bei. and was quite angry that he is still at home. so never mind i went walking arround by myself while he make his way down. when he reach city hall mrt. i expect him to give mi a hug or a kiss but in stead he give mi a black face. he say i stupid as i never bring the clothes out to change as we going dinner later at night with his mother. Anniversary suppose to be 2 person spend together de. end up spending with one big group. haiz. i was very angry when he say mi stupid. i am in a very bad mood le and he is late and still say mi stupid. i think that day is a very sad day. bao bei keep saying sorry from the mrt station to the "make a bear" shop where i will be having my interview at 3pm. we were there early. so i storm away from the shop. and sat outside the arcade there. bao bei made mi so angry and made mi cry on our anniversary. i have no mood to eat for the whole day.

not long after, we stop quarreling and we went for the interview. it was such a disappointed and angry interview. we were given5 min to dress up a bear or a soft toy which we have been eyeing very long. i was the first to reach the station, i was about to grab the cow when another girl push mi aside and took the cow away. i was angry. but no choice. i left with a puppy dog.so i grab it and start to dress it with a boxer and a jean and t-shirt and sweater with a hat and a sun glass and a bag and a skit board. it look rather cool but in the end i was not choosen to carry on with the next interview so i left. this was the second blow of the day.

then bao bei and mi went to get some stuff to bite. we passed by SAKAE SUSHI and saw that they are hiring part timers. so we went to ask about it. got the form, filled up the form and i went for the interview. it was quite good and i am hired by them and i will be starting work on friday at fu nan( 5pm to 10.30pm). i got to go take the injection on thursday. before i start working there.

after the interview we went back to my house as i want to bath. so "lucky" strawberry season come. sian. after i finish bathing. bao bei and mi took bus back to his house. his mother is waiting for us. she keep on rushing us asking us to hurry up when we are still very early for the dinner.so we sat at the living room and start chatting about buying house. i don't mind staying with bao bei mother.

we took a taxi to the place. this is where my worst nightmare begin.we went parying then got seated down. we share a table with a family of 5. they look familiar to mi i think they stay near or in amk area. her elder daughter is the same age as mi but not studying le her bf also. what made mi so sad and heart broken is that bao bei mother compare mi with her. she look slim and pretty but i look ugly and fat. bao bei mother did not say or spell it out clearly but it is very obvious than she is saying mi. i type a sms showing to bao bei that i don't want to stay any more longer. he did nothing but just shake his head.

when we are about to board the taxi i told him not to tell his mother about it. as i know this will lead to quarrel between him and his mother. i will feel guity if they quarrel. so i keep it to myself and when mummy they all come back home after visiting yi mummy they found out that i am not myself. so they ask mi what happend and i told them what happened. as i say i cannot hold back my tears so i cried. then i went to bed. feeling very xin ku as i am losing blood and i feel very tired but cannot sleep. turning left and right till 3 plus in the morning then i cred myself to bed. then wake up at 6am the go school. both eyes swollen like gold fish. feeling very terrible. all i ask for is to have a dinner and go watch a movie just 2 of us also very hard to come true. so disappointed this time.. sob..